Standing in need of

There is no friend in need. I think I’ve lived wrong.

I don’t want to be an alternative or a second choice at any case. If I am, I’ll be disconnected. The second choice is not my nature. If I am the second choice of someone, I don't need anyone as true friend or lover (especially as for lover). That was why I left him long time ago. I thought I was offended and hurt my pride with all his excuses. I could not stand the situation in which I thought I didn’t deserve. No matter whether it was true or not, the most important thing was that I felt so. I’ve always wanted sincerity and consistency. Even if the virtues would not be fulfilled, there would have to be perseverance in efforts for them. Recognised or not, he frustrated my trust and I could not accept it. I am/have been usually tolerant and considerate for others—their mistakes or their feelings, but I, too, have limits. When something or someone goes beyond my limits, I cannot but renounce the link with. . .

Brit…

P.S)

I just needed a friend in need. That’s all. You’re not there whenever I really needed you. I thought we’ve shared a kind of connection. Now I find that it’s totally my misunderstanding. I’ve committed the fallacy of interpretation.