Dissertation at the beginning

Time flies so fast that it’s like meeting another day in every blink of eyes!

My diss. work is at a standstill, since continual reading requires incessantly new reading, it looks like running on the spot. ‘Where’ and ‘how’ can I formulate something in my mind and reveal them? So distressed, I used to be dropped down to despair now and then. furthermore, my physical condition, its limits—weakened physical strength which I’m sensing often disturb me mentally and physically, that is, weakening-sighted [more and more], chronic backache and chronic problem in my nervous system, several symptoms due to stress, and so on. I absolutely need some reasonably designed exercise and have to spare time for it, but even it’s not easy.

I must not die writing my dissertation as Prof. Kang joked. I don’t think the burden is that much, and I‘m just psychologically oppressed, so in some senses he is right, I must have in mind what is first and what next. I think that years is not more than numbers, but sometimes it—being old makes me down. I cannot devote myself in studying with similar amount of time like my young colleagues. For example, sitting up [at night] is nothing for me in my earlier years, but now I cannot do that. Anyway, there’s long way to go for achieving my Ph. D. and I must have patience. I have to struggle against my emotion which sometimes haunts my mind like manic-depressive psychosis, too.

Brit…