English conversation is always my hot potato. It claims immediate reactions, so doesn’t allow time for me to think over proper words and expression fitting to situations. I need time to hit upon answers, to select fit words, and to shape passable sentences, however. Thus I often miss right moments to speak and make steps-delayed articulations.
Having lunch with Wallace yesterday, I felt like being a dummy. I got much to tell him, but didn’t cover my thought with words. Clumsiness at speaking foreign language always snatches words away from my lips and disturbs me in keeping up with my mind. My speaking [in English] was steps-delayed as ever, and most words which I intended to were at a standstill on the tip of my tongue. Wallace used to complete my unspoken words or correct my wrong-structured sentences, in doing so, he usually makes me comfortable, but I become distracted now and then. Of course, he knows I’m sensitive regarding this issue.
I wish conversing can be comfortable like writing. Even in Korean, sometimes I feel easy at writing more than at speaking. ‘Face to face’ or eye contact makes my head stiff, I think, so I frequently feel awkward. Some indescribable anxiety would block my way, and I, and my eyes, get lost. English makes it worse at any time. How and when I can naturally converse in English?
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