Upset

I’m totally upset. No mood for work though being chased by time. All things with which I’ve confronted this year betrayed my expectation―appraisal & achievement in work, potentiality for job, invested money, and people. Even the depression of last summer repeated with the same cause. I’m just blown up, being crushed flat. I feel like falling and eagerly need a consolation, but I don’t want to talk about them. I realised that I have no friend in need and therefore I’ve lived wrong. Nobody was beside me when I acutely needed one. Friends in the distance are no friends at all.

I need no one, I just need crying.

Brit…