I’ve pondered over the cause of my emotional slump. The slump has been quite long since I began to fall into. It’s like a certain kind of psychological lethargy, definitely the cause was not simple, it’s complicated enough not to pick one or two thing as explanation. I’ve veiled it under the designed gaiety, however. That has worked somehow.
I ruminated myself again and again and hypnotised myself continually repeating “Don’t lose yourself, you can do it, try to live every best day, if you do with all your heart, nothing can make you down.” It didn’t help me so well, but I have only just managed my psychic grogginess now.
In fact I cannot stick to this gloominess anymore. Summer is passing (even though this year we are losing most of the season here in Busan) and autumn semester is coming. The new semester will be tough one to me. I’ll attend two seminars on drama, one of which is Theory of Modern British Drama—from Shakespeare to Oscar Wilde—, and the other is Studies in Contemporary American Drama. I’ll have to read at least 21 works of 19 dramatists, present two term-papers and six short papers, and give two-and-more oral presentations. Drama is not my major, but there is no novel seminar I’ve missed in the curriculum of the semester. I think plunging myself into dramas will be good experience to me. Anyway I have to begin reading dramas sooner or later.
Furthermore, doing the things mentioned above, I have to make some preparations for my dissertation, the doctorial thesis. God bless me!
Brit…
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